Torn between two loves...

I am so excited about our family coming over on Sunday for our annual SOUP day, that I am like a little kid waiting for Christmas. Family is so important, and we are all very loving and respectful to the uniqueness of each of us. This is the first Soup party without Matka, and she will be missed but she will be FELT. After all, she is the one who loved us and showed us how to appreciate family times. We all bring some food item to share at these parties, and we try to be good hosts to our valued guests. I am sure there will be pictures to share and many laughs-we try to get in a game of dominoes, but sometimes we just are too busy BEINGWITHEACHOTHER to fit anything else in. Next month, we will be hosting our other side of the family, and I look forward with equal excitement to that party.

So, here is my "torn" element: our lives are going on as usual, enjoying the changing of the season, getting together with family, cheering on the local hockey team, but how dare we with the devastation in Japan? I know, cancelling a soup party will not help them through this tragedy, but in my heart I think of all the mothers who lost children or are watching them suffer from radiation exposure, the wives who have lost husbands, the children who have lost parents, those who have their lives, but have lost all possessions-what a heart breaking overwhelming existence they are living. I prayer for them, I cry easily for them and I wish it did not happen.

My love of humanity makes me what some people call "A bleeding heart". This is true, and while I am not proud of my inability to cope better with the pain of others, I know it is better to have a heart to bleed than to be non-caring for the plight of others.....